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The Lyme Warrior
"With challenge comes opportunity for growth and transformation. Embrace the struggle beauties."
"I live to inspire others through my story, and my burning desire to leave the world a more beautiful place."
"Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."
"There’s nothing to me more beautiful than seeing a woman expressing herself authentically, bringing attitude and confidence to the equation."
My daughter made me beautiful mantra cards of inspiring phrases and affirmations. “What would you do,” she asked me, “if you were well?” It was 2015 and I was bedridden with daily seizures. My daughter’s question was a turning point in my recovery. Try as it may, Lyme disease would not take my life.
I created a bucket list. This quickly morphed into a blog where I could share my love of fashion. I began living in that space, dreaming, scheming and visualizing myself as healthy, happy, traveling and wearing beautiful clothes. More importantly, I began healing rapidly.
My love of fashion was literally the key to saving my life. For me, fashion is about connecting to who we are at our deepest levels and learning how to express that in a way that is unique to every one of us.
Since starting CatherineGraceO, I have collaborated with Maka Designs, Trisha Dunn, Paul Andrew, Ditto Eyewear, Vellabox Candles, and AWE Jewelry. I have been featured by Banana Republic and Anthropologie.
But to me, fashion is more than just brand names. It’s about people who are deeply soul searching. It is my medium of creative self expression. It is my way of inspiring others and leaving the world a better place.
When we first connected with Nalie, she was about to launch her (AMAZING) YouTube series “The Nalie Show”, but shortly after she was diagnosed with a cancer recurrence, this time in her lungs. Nalie has documented both of her fights with cancer for her 20k+ followers: real tears, real pre-chemo dance parties, real heartfelt advice for other cancer fighters. We are in AWE of her courage in the face of adversity and her dedication to her #NaliesArmy of supporters. She’s a Warrior with a Warrior Medallion!
"Incurable is not a declaration… it’s a DARE."
"When you feel good. FEEL GREAT. Don’t waste a second worrying about tomorrow."
"Never hide who you are because there is no one in the world like you and someone out there needs you."
Host of THE NALIE SHOW! || New episodes on my YouTube Channel every Monday || The Diary of a Metastatic Breast Cancer Thriver || Crushed a TED Talk 3 Days After Reconstructive Surgery || “Chemo Secrets” E-Guide
I’ve been battling breast cancer since I was 24 years old. I know right? So young! I didn’t even think it was possible. Unlike my brothers, I don’t have a single allergy and I never broke a bone. My parents always joked, “3rd time’s a charm! The last one came out perfect!”
Perfect. All except for… cancer.
On July 2013, I was diagnosed with Stage 2B Breast Cancer. I had 2 tumors in my left breast and 1 in my lymph node. I underwent 16 rounds of chemotherapy. Then a total mastectomy and 29 rounds of radiation.
One year later, I was able to scream at the top of my lungs that I was CANCER FREE.
I was ecstatic. Once I got cleared, I traveled to the Philippines, Indonesia and Thailand, wrote the “Chemo Secrets” and did a TED talk. I got a job at the Association for Children with Cancer and launched The Nalie Show. I was living my dreams!
3 years later… my biggest nightmare came true. The cancer came back. I, Nalie Agustin, now had Stage 4 Metastatic Breast cancer in the lungs.
Chemo was to start immediately—AGAIN. But if you’ve gotten to know me by now, incurable is not a declaration. It’s a DARE!
I share my journey for 3 reasons. 1) Inspiration: I want to inspire you to NEVER GIVE UP! 2) Aspiration: I have big dreams and I refuse to let cancer stop me from achieving them. And 3) Awareness: It is my duty to prove that breast cancer doesn’t just happen to elder women. Generation X-Y-Z: Check your boobs!
Someone recently asked me how I stay strong? Well... this man next to me is a big reason! Thursday night I watched the premiere of Beauty & the Beast and was reminded of how strong the father-daughter bond is. How fathers & daughters travel to the most dangerous & darkest places in the woods to protect each other. Then... my big brother sends me videos of him & my 4 month old niece and I'm instantly reminded of how that's how my Daddy used to carry me and make me giggle when I was a baby.
I stay strong because I know how hard it must be to see your baby girl suffer... If I stay strong my family stays strong too. It's the least I can do for everything he's done for me.
So proudly together, we hold up Round 4 with smiles on our faces versus tears in our eyes, because we know, no matter what, we have each other!
I have GOOD NEWS and BAD NEWS. Which one do you wanna hear first? ... Don't we always start with the bad? Ok here it goes... BAD NEWS: The "Red Devil" didn't let me off easy. I've been suffering from severe abdominal pain and hadn't eaten in 4 days. I was therefore hospitalized yesterday to get hydrated and did a couple of tests to see what's going on with my stomach. I could have caught a bug or it may simply be bad chemo side effects. GOOD NEWS: I'm now out of the hospital. I did a chest & abdomen CT scan. Possibilities that cancer spread to my abdomen or any other abdominal problems which could have caused the pain are ALL RULED OUT. (Alleluia) And the BEST NEWS EVER: The scan already shows that my lung nodules have DECREASED! Meaning... Treatments and visualizations are working! That... makes ALL the pain worth it!
Tash took her experience with domestic abuse and sexual assault and turned it into an incredible organization that empowers women through similar trauma. Her writings on personal strength are prophetic and bring comfort to so many. We are in AWE of her wisdom and dedication to healing those in need.
"You are also a survivor. No matter what story you have lived and no matter what trials and heartaches you have gone through."
"Flawed & (still) worthy"
"I am golden / A goddess / beautifully made of / atomic energy + stardust."
Broken Heals Founder + Author || Certified Coach Helping Women Transform Pain into Power || Write to Heal Email Coaching || Random Notes from a Broken Girl
When I was 23, I dated a boy who had been my best friend. As we approached our 2nd year, infidelity hit. I needed answers to my questions. Then one day my questions came to a halt. He lost it.
And over again.
His sneakers felt like a hammer being hit into my back. Every month that passed the attacks got worse.
I share my story because I know it is one that many women have experienced. I share my story because I find strength reading these words and embracing where I’ve come from. It’s our duty to ourselves to feed ourselves positive words, to show major, undying love to ourselves. I come first. I set the standard. I am not undesirable. I am growing. I am beautiful. I am resilient.
1. Take way more risks. I promised myself I was going to do one thing outside my box each month in 2016. And I did! I've had so much fun this year, made a lot of new friends, conquered some big fears and gained new confidence just by saying Yes to things I would have normally run from.
2. Negativity + People can totally block your success. I've let go of people who were simply taking up too much of my headspace. Major blessings have just continuously poured in the minute I released myself from negative energy and worry. It was like God wanted to make a point to show me "Hey I told you so!"
3. Set those goals. Pray. Work on it. And Trust it'll happen. If I showed you my goal list for 2016 about 60-70% was achieved without me realizing it. That's huge for me since I'm a major over thinker and worrier. As long as you believe in it and it's what you really want - it'll happen.
"There is nothing more dangerous than a man with a vision and an insatiable drive to succeed."
"I think of myself as a conduit for creative disruption."
"To pursue what’s never been achieved takes courage to persevere through a sea of “no’s” and “can’t be done’s.” The key: recognizing the only “yes” you need comes from within."
They sent an e-mail to the little kids I coached that I would kill their parents with an automatic rifle. They shot a metal ball bearing through my living room window that nearly killed me. They spray painted my car and trashed my home with eggs, toilet paper, bleach, you name it. They tried to crush me. But they made me invincible instead.
I think of my high school bullies the way I think of flu shots. They were a small dose of concentrated suffering that made me immune to any challenge I might face in the future. Without their actions, I don’t know that I would be the man I am today.
I’m the founder and CEO of my own menswear company, Rob McAllan, and a Class of 2016 GQ Insider. As a side-effect of handling hostility, I’ve learned to see past the surface and dig into the innermost layers that companies I’m consulting for rarely notice.
I also have an incredible family I call every night on my way home to my beautiful girlfriend and our little 7-month-old pup, Murphy. I have joy and balance every day in NYC. And I keep a coffee meeting slot open every morning to mentor students.
When I think back on my bullies, I feel sorry for what they must have been going through. And I thank them for making me the invulnerable man I am today.
A C T I O N is the key differentiator between wanting greatness and achieving it. Tell me your dreams and I'll ask "what's stopping you from doing something about it right now, right this very second?" Tomorrow is intangible, we can't change what's to come without focusing on what's right within our grasp today. Will you sit back and wait for that perfect opportunity that may never come, or say yes to that voice inside that's yelling out "GO!" The choice is up to you.
The TRUE Titan
Dale is a momtrepreneur-model-cancer-surviving-phoenix. She fought cancer while pregnant, survived and founded a top NYC modeling agency that signs models who are both kind and healthy. We are in AWE of her dedication to redefining beauty standards and her ability to juggle it all!
"Here's to strong women. May we know them. May we be them. May we raise them.""Every single event in life is an opportunity to choose love over fear.""Look in the mirror, that’s your competition!"
It was a matter of seconds. My doctor told me I had a tumor on my tongue. My life flashed before my eyes. I pictured my family at my funeral. Then, instantly, I stopped myself from thinking this way. I looked at my doctor and said, “This isn’t great news. But it’s good news that you found the tumor. What do we have to right now to get rid of it?”
I was a 4 months pregnant when I was diagnosed with oral cancer. After several head and neck surgeries, I’m cancer free and my baby’s growing up fast.
Before my pregnancy, I was one of fashion’s most sought after fitting models. Now I’m the Founder and CEO of TRUE Model Management. I’m looking past the bottom line to hire models who are beautiful inside and out.
At TRUE we have traditional models, but we also have plus-size talent and women over 30 working with us. We’re inclusive, and we’ve found a lot of success because of it.
TRUE has close ties with Calvin Klein, DKNY, Gap, Ralph Lauren and Victoria’s Secret. But there has to be a purpose beyond the work. Even when we connect with big companies, we try to find causes they’re passionate about and help them think about something bigger than themselves. It’s not just about a picture on Instagram that earns you a few bucks. We need more than pictures on a page. We need voices for good.
1. 10 x 3 Stretching
There are three times a day that I feel stretching or practicing 10-minutes of yoga really help me to feel more energized or relaxed – and it is exactly that dual nature of stretching and yoga that I love! I like to do slow, controlled, and strengthening yoga and relaxing stretches that help me to loosen my muscles and unwind.
2. Staying Fueled
It may sound cliché, but what you eat really can make a difference in how you feel! I find that a hearty, healthy breakfast and several nutritious snacks throughout the day help to keep me going!
3. A Change-Up
Sometimes, I find that I need a good change-up in my schedule to get me motivated and energized! Routines are great and really do help to keep me focused and motivated, but sometimes a little change can do wonders for giving new motivation and life to your day-to-day schedule.
4. Cut Down Caffeine
I know this advice seems counter-intuitive and don’t get me wrong - I love a strong, bold cup of joe! But, overdoing it with the caffeine can actually make you feel even more tired and run down! It is for this reason that you should try to limit yourself to just 1 coffee or latte in the morning.
5. Mind Over Matter
Anyone who knows me knows that I genuinely believe in the power of positive thinking! Sometimes we are our own biggest obstacle! So, the next time you feel rundown and unmotivated try repeating a positive mantra to yourself for 2 minutes each day.
The Fast Girl
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson"Stigma is a polite way of saying shame and discrimination.""I am more than a diagnosis."#breakthestigma
Olympic finals. 50 meters left. And I fell. On purpose.Growing up I lived with an eating disorder, attempted suicide, and had severe anxiety when I raced. The only way to keep up my facade as a perfect Midwestern girl was to win.
And for a while, I won a lot. I won more NCAA championships than anyone ever had. I won seven US Championships, set American Records, and made three Olympic teams.But the facade shattered in Sydney, when I fell in a race I was favored to win because I realized I wouldn’t medal. It was a race I wanted to honor my brother’s suicide from the previous year.What I didn’t yet know was that my anxiety and suicidal thoughts were all linked to my undiagnosed bipolar disorder. Running was a drug that kept that illness at bay. When I retired, my doctors prescribed me a new drug: Zoloft.On anti-depressants, I wanted to LIVE. 20th Anniversary dinner date? No thank you. I flew to Vegas and became one of the top ten escorts in the world. I was no longer depressed, I was manic.My story leaked and my husband found out. But he didn’t leave. He found the best doctors to treat my bipolar disorder. I now share my story to shed the stigma on mental illness. It’s easy to measure success in medals. But my little family, we made it through hell and back. There’s no way to measure that.
I love motivational quotes as much as anybody, but here's the thing. When you are in the middle of suicidal depression, they have the potential of being totally unrelatable and out of touch. In fact, they can be irritating as hell. Messages of "just try harder" or "we are in control of our own happiness" don't exactly ring true when you are in the darkness, your brain is not cooperating & hope is next to impossible to find. So for those of you not living with mental illness, kick ass like there is no tomorrow. For those of you who are managing, keep moving forward in your recovery the best you can at this moment. But for those in the throes of mental illness, just simply know that it can get better, no matter how hopeless things are at the time. There is always a reason to keep going, no matter how impossible that might sound right now. You are not alone and your ability to take what the unwell mind can throw at you makes you one serious badass in my eyes, as it should in the eyes of everyone. #mentalhealth
The Bionic Yogi
Sofia is a shining light: her energy radiates positivity, happiness, and serenity (plus, she looks fantastic in our Serenity Choker). Osteosarcoma forced her to replace the majority of her left leg with titanium, but that only pushed her harder to start her “Bionic Yogi” movement. We are in AWE of her inspirational lifestyle blog dedicated to getting fellow cancer survivors back to health.
"Embrace Our New Normal"
"We can do SO MUCH MORE than we give ourselves credit for. Get at it! But give yourself alllll sorts of love in the process."
"Our bodies have amazing abilities to figure out how to function even in the absence of what seems essential. Hamstrings, boobs, knees, kidneys...who needs em right?"
Can we talk about hair for a second? All I wanted for so many years was to have my long hair back and while I'm so grateful to have hair again sometimes I miss showering my bald head (when I actually made it to the shower...ha) and then throwing on the wig of my choice for the day. Am I the only one?
The Mighty Mini Yogini
"I am not my body, I am not my thoughts, I am not my emotions… I’m still learning who I really am."
"Babe you have breast cancer" were my husband’s words. I was numb. I had suffered so much already. I couldn't wrap my mind around the simple fact that I was about to be tested in such an insidious way. It all seemed surreal. I closed my eyes and opened them again. It wasn't a dream. That was my lowest moment. The putrid fear was overwhelming. It scarred me to my soul.
But the turning point came quickly. I decided within the first week to document my journey and share it with the world. The idea of using my cancer to help others gave me more strength than words can describe. From that day forward cancer was in for a fight!
The day I finished my treatment and was cleared by my doctors was one of the greatest days of my life. I wasn't going to die. I was going to live to raise my children. I was going to live and love my husband. It was like bathing in sunlight. It was glorious!
Fast forward to today. I am blessed to be a wellness guide on www.oneOeight.com and share my yoga teachings with people all over the world. I am a mother and wife, and that is reward enough. Cancer taught me to stop and be kind. It showed me I was powerful. I learned serving others was the only life that could possibly satisfy me now. Selfish thoughts fell away. They were replaced with serenity and peace.
"You have breast cancer."I will never forget the day those words came out of Gerald’s mouth. I think about them often, not in a sad way, but in an empowering way. When I look in the mirror and I see my scars from all 26 surgeries it reminds me that I am a badass woman. Cancer was a gift that allowed me to meet amazing people. As blessed as I feel to have survived I know how much I needed the support of my friends and family. Thank you to my social media fam for empowering me and making me stronger. You all have played a huge role in my recovery physically and mentally. We hear very often how social media is negative so it's nice to share with the world that sometimes it helps some people. Today my ex-sister-in-law and dear friend Dawn is starting chemo to begin her battle with cancer. I want to ask you to please send a prayer and good vibes her way.
The Health Over Hollywood Heroine
"We will not be ashamed. We will not be made small. We will not be judged. We will not be stigmatized. We will continue showing up. And. We. Will. Recover."
"Honor the survivors in your life who may not have a typical indication of their struggle, who may not realize they’re survivors at all, or worse, may feel they’re unworthy of survival."
In an interview, i was asked where I saw myself in 5 years. I remember making up some acceptable answer but going home that night with the realization that if I got honest with myself, I knew I would have been dead in 5 years had I stayed on the path I was on. I was spiraling in depression, anxiety and eating disorders trying to become who I was told I needed to be if I wanted to work.
My entire career in Hollywood, I was sent out for roles like “hooker” or “stripper” or “hot brunette.” I felt cheap and unfulfilled. If I wasn’t comfortable, I was reminded by my agents there were hundreds of girls ready to take my place and take their clothes off if I didn’t want to work. All my value was in being thin with a stereotypically pretty face. The more weight I lost, the more bookings I gained.” Like clockwork. So I restricted calories. I took diet and caffeine pills. I lied in bed surrounded by the fast food I had just eaten, crying, then throwing it up because I couldn’t afford to gain weight from the binge.
When Robin Williams took his life in 2014, it hit me. He had what everyone in LA wants. But he still couldn’t shake his inner demons. I packed my bags, went home to Nevada, and began to focus on my health. I have taken critical steps in my recovery. And I’ve started Health Over Hollywood to help other women on a similar path.
I encourage women to choose health over damaging body standards. Over toxicity and media manipulation. Over societal pressures that sell an idea no matter how many broken bodies it leaves in its wake.
"I want girls who are angry instead of sick."-Glennon Doyle Melton
I've turned my sick into anger. I've turned my pain into truth. I've had a glimpse of a life where I MATTER and my dress size DOES NOT. And now we embark on the road forward; armed to go to battle and ready to rest when needed because this will be a long & difficult fight. Also because self care is important.
There is no backing down. There is no giving up. There is no surrendering to a society & an industry that spends billions each year to ensure we women are kept SMALL, insecure, vulnerable, in fear, and broken. Put on your gloves & lace those bitches up tight. It’s time to recover. It’s time to live on our own terms. It’s time to fight back.
I'm sorry, with all the sorry I can muster, because you deserve all the sorrys and more.
I came across some old photos this week and found myself longing for the thin, sick, bulimic version of you. For the way clothes used to fit. For the way skinny used to feel. I betrayed you, glorifying an old version of you… that externally gave agents, managers, casting directors & cameras exactly what they wanted, but inside, left you sick, broken and fighting to live.The forgiveness you've shown me by allowing me recovery is so valued; I promise I have your best interest in mind, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.I will to continue caring for you to the best of my ability and continue doing better as I learn how.
I'll never view our past with rose colored glasses again; eyes blind to the sickness you were so tirelessly fighting yet focused on the size of your waist.The problem is not you, the problem has never been you, last year, last night, or tomorrow. You are beautiful and capable and strong and worthy, just as you are, at this moment. You allow me to walk and run and snowshoe and dance, to meditate and breathe and seek spirituality.
You let me weep, hurt, heal, stand back up, and rest at the end of the cycle. I see and smell and hear and taste and touch - all thanks to you.You are everything you are supposed to be.
Thank you for your patience while I learn to truly see you.I love you.
The East Bay Dreamers
"It's crazy to watch dreams become reality. You've gotta keep pushing and never stop doing anything that you love."
"We aim to kill anything that gets put in front of us !!! We are never gonna stop pursuing our dreams!!! #hustle #hungry #motivation #success."
"So proud of everything that I came from. I was raised well but I am thankful for every opportunity that has come my way."
Victoria walked up to me in a bar and told me I was perfect for a TV show she was on. No way this was real. Next thing I knew, my twin brother and I were shooting a pilot.
Growing up was great, even if we were less than lucky. Our mother, Yvonne, is number one in our lives and we were always “three the hard way.”
When we were five, our mom woke us up crying. She said our dad was just murdered. Our only memories of him are shoulder rides and wrestling.
Another person named Bill became the man in our lives for six years and taught us manners and football. He slipped carrying a water jug and spent his days on an air mattress because of his back. Our mom found him dead next to that mattress one day. We were so devastated we missed two weeks of school. It was hard to pick up the pieces.
At 24, we were struggling. My mom quit her job and we were unemployed. We received a month notice because we couldn’t pay our rent. We decided to move to NYC to make it as actors and models.
We signed to an agency but it wasn’t easy finding work. We stood in our Calvins in Time Square trying to make money. The first place we could afford in the Bronx had bullet holes in the front door.
But the risk paid off. The pilot turned into a show on WE tv called “Hustle & Soul.” We both have commercials and print work everywhere. We have been through it all and we are getting through it each and every day.
We take nothing for granted.
Dom to Stef: I love my brother more than anything!! We are best friends forever no matter what!! No one will ever change that. Love you SD.***Stef to Dom: My bro really killed it the end of this year has huge work coming to a screen near you!***Dom to Stef: I love my bro to the moon and back!!!!!! We know why we came to #nyc LET'S FINISH WHAT WE CAME HERE FOR!***Stef to Dom: Just wanna say congrats to my #bigtwinbro have a safe flight and kill it on the set???????? British ???? territory be safe love you I'll hold it down in #nyc***Dom to Stef: Feels great to be reunited w/ my bro!!! @sddaboss it's been like 2 weeks since I've seen you!!! Can't be doing that shit!! We are out here together!!!! Love you??***Stef to Dom: I just wanna say #congrats to my big bro @dominic_d5 for booking a bundle of jobs these past couple of months seriously it's all about patience keep it up you are about to have a blast out of the country for a bit. I'm gonna try and visit haha but let's get this on Friday boiiiiii love you!!!
"If you have a dream... make it a reality! Don't ever let anyone tell you different. All we can say is we're thankful for everything that is happening!"
The Amplified Soul
"Don’t wait for your dream to be a regret. Make it your reality."
"Your soul knows what it needs and wants. Give it that, and stop settling for anything else."
“Why me?” I found myself singing this same familiar song as I sank into the deepest rock-bottom moment of my life in 2012. Nothing felt right. In fact, everything felt miserable. A cheating partner, crippling anxiety, destructive depression, and a deep addiction to drugs and alcohol… an addiction I failed to recognize.
As I lay there on the floor... sobbing, heaving… the truth finally dawned on me. I created this life. Every single choice that lead me to this rock-bottom moment, was a choice that I made. I chose the abusive relationships, the drugs, the alcohol, and the misery. I chose it all. It was through this realization that I discovered a major epiphany… If I had the power to create these misery-inducing choices, I also had the power to create different choices. And I was ready to experience something different.
I began my journey right there and then by making a commitment to myself. … and it all began with self-love.
The journey wasn’t a straight-shot. I made a lot of mistakes and experienced a ton of set-backs due to my habit of poor decision making. I realized that my actions were based on my sense of self-worth, and I was determined more than ever to boost my worth. But that didn’t happen until I experienced a major step backwards… I was high at an after-hours club and fainted. I ended up with a concussion, followed by post-concussion syndrome. I slipped into a manic-depressive state and was diagnosed with nerve damage in my brain. That was my wake-up call. I knew I couldn’t hide from myself or my pain anymore. I made the decision to go all in.
No more excuses. No more bullshit. No more half-assed attempts at changing my life. I committed to doing whatever the f*ck it took to design a life I truly loved.
I dropped the drugs. I let go of my toxic habits and friendships. I began to prioritize myself, my needs, and my health. And I soon found myself falling in love with an incredible, miracle of a man.
My entire life has changed. And I created this by tapping into my own power, realizing my worth, and radically boosting self-love.
Today, I dedicate my life to igniting others to tap into their true power; their limitless power. I’m a straight-up, bold and fearless coach with a dynamic no-bullshit approach that helps people create massive change. I get it now… I understand that every single experience in my life serves a higher purpose, and that purpose is to do the work that I do now.
I have zero regrets… only gratitude for the lessons that I’ve learned.
This is a message for those of you who are determined to rise up and experience your true potential...
You're tired of playing small.
You're tired of shoving your dreams aside due to fear.
You're tired of giving into your limits.
And you're ready for something different...
You're seeking change, and I can help.
I want to help you jump out of your comfort zone and into your dreams.
I want to help you conquer your fears and show up bigger and bolder in your life, relationships, and career.
I want to help you push through your limits and go after the big things you've been afraid to go after.
Since #AmplifiedSoulLive ended, I've been told by many people that I changed the lives of everyone in that room. I've been contemplating all day, and here's what's come up for me...
THEY did the work.
Every single person in that room did the fucking work, made shit happen, and created massive changes in their lives. I cannot take credit for that.
I am an igniter of inner power and a catalyst for change... but I do not create change in others... they create change in their own lives.
The souls in that room blew my fucking mind. It was so divinely planned. Every single person who was there, was meant to be there.
I witnessed souls conquering their bullshit.
I witnessed souls getting clear on their visions.
I witnessed souls playing BIG AF.
I witnessed souls creating massive breakthroughs.
I witnessed souls rising into their true power.
And I witnessed souls saying FUCK YES to their lives!
This is what life is about...
Growth. Change. Transformation. And purpose.
I am so grateful to have crossed paths with my beautiful #AmplifiedTribe! Thank you Universe for blessing me with this very important purpose.
"You are truly beautiful and wonderfully made, not to be perfect but to be courageous. Stay brave, fearless, bold, and strong! That’s your #Power."
"Being different is one of the most beautiful things in the world. Free the scars, the curls, the imperfections, the most beautiful and untouched you."
"I am a woman. What is your superpower?"
Model. Activist. Ambassador. & Bionic Woman. || Osteosarcoma Bone Cancer Survivor || Child of God & SLP in the making || LA | NY
I had one question: Will I be able to walk the runway again? I was 12 years old and I had just been diagnosed with Osteosarcoma.
When I was still in a wheelchair, I brought my mom’s red stilettos to the hospital and showed them to my physical therapist. These were our challenge. The runway was our goal.
I exceeded everyone’s expectations. It took three leg reconstructions, a titanium prosthesis, and twenty cycles of aggressive chemotherapy. But three months after my last surgery, I walked for the designer of Michael Costello, Stephanie Costello and Walter Mendez in New York's Mercedes Benz Fashion Week. My next runway? Los Angeles Fashion Week for Candice Cuoco and Vanessa Simmons.
I love fashion and modeling, but my goal is crystal clear: I hope to inspire young women and little girls to embrace life’s perfections and imperfections. I want them to see the world the way my battle taught me to. To breathe a little deeper, to love stronger, to look at challenges and fast forward to seeing the victory. To know you’ve faced the worst and can handle anything that comes your way.
If you didn't know me, now you will.....
1. I am Natalia Harris, a NY native, LA based model of Barbadian and Dominican descent. Osteosarcoma (bone cancer) survivor, positive body image activist, college student (speech therapist in the making) and a believer.
2. Alter Ego: "Bionic Woman" - I'm known for having a centipede looking-15' in. beautiful scar that runs down half of my leg and holds my internal titanium prosthetic limb. After undergoing a couple of leg reconstruction surgeries, surviving aggressive chemotherapy and rigorous physical therapy, my scar is a symbol of strength of when cancer tried to kill me but failed.
3. I'm a former basketball player like my dad, lover of Bikram yoga, and eat like a boy (I eat pretty healthy most of the time though lol)
4. Funny Fact: I sound off alarms and metal detectors at airports and some department stores with my bionic leg.
5. I share my journey with others to remind young women, cancer patients, survivors, students, to embrace life with its perfections and imperfections, to embrace body positivity and inclusivity in fashion, and to never give up on their dreams.
Do not let circumstances define you. Embrace your uniqueness because no one in this world has been crafted to be just like you!
I'm still processing what it means to be a childhood cancer survivor. Overcoming this huge obstacle in my life is a reminder of what it means to go through many storms and still have the strength, hope and faith to shine. Thank you @AWEInspired_ for reminding me of my courage and honoring me with this beautiful necklace. This represents the beauty and resilience in survivorship of all circumstances. I'm delighted to be part of your community.
The Relentless Warrior
Tamara is a miracle: she’s survived 2 near-fatal car accidents and is more empowered than ever. She’s building a movement to empower other “women on wheels” by reporting on their stories through her project “See Beyond”. We are in AWE of her optimistic worldview, her fierce style, and the strength she radiates to her community of supporters.
"Don't ever acquire the victim role because WE are NOT VICTIMS. WE ARE FIGHTERS and WE FIGHT FOR WHAT WE WANT and for what we want to see in our life!""ONE SIMPLE THING: If you see us as "disabled" and unable, please look into all of our profiles and find out everything we all do! *We are ABLE of so much! We just do things differently ;)."
God 1st || G20 Summit Speaker || Host || Model--NYFW || Speaker || Influencer || Bilingual || B.A. in Communications || Host&Producer @seebeyondtv || Fashion/Beauty || Youtuber || Cosmo Fun and Fearless Latina
I had the perfect story to victimize myself. It’s how they talked about me on TV: “19 years old, freaky taxi-horse collision, spinal-cord injury, paralyzed from chest down, dead boyfriend.” It was the perfect story, but it was not how I chose to tell it. I was not a victim. I was a miracle.I was a miracle because I survived not one but two car accidents that should have killed me. So I chose to live my life as a survivor, achieve my dreams, and empower others to do the same.Since my accident, I graduated from college, a goal I had as a little girl. I received highest honors and gave CSUS’s commencement speech in front of 10,000 people. And I’ve learned to accept my new body and image, a process that was not easy. But that process led me to the runway at NY’s Mercedes Benz Fashion week and to the stage of Nuestra Belleza Latina as the pageant’s first and only contestant in a wheelchair.My next dream is to become a host and interviewer. I recently produced seven videos for “See Beyond,” a project I started to make that dream a reality. Some things will never make sense. But life’s not about things making sense. It’s about the meaning you create, what YOU decide to make of it.
I don't know how all of you moms out there do it, but especially those mommies on wheels! It made me wonder, what are cool little tricks out there for moms who happen to be on wheels to help them be as independent as possible with their babies? Sure a lot of things will be difficult but a lot of those can probably be adapted! I don't know what God has in store for me in the future, but it made me wonder what you ladies have learned, being in a wheelchair?To all mommies out there, keep being awesome and don't take things you can do with your child for granted! After becoming injured, I remember no longer feeling like I would become the independent mom I had imagined myself being – the super active, always on the go mom. It took some time to see myself in a different light and to see me being valuable to a child, as a mom in a wheelchair. I had to in a way to let go of the old me, the image I had of myself as a fully abled mom & accept the new me and accept that I might need help with certain things but that shouldn't make me less of a mom or a person. Just a different type of mom. Plus kids are so smart and they just know, adapt and understand more than we think sometimes!
Little did I know what I was about to face the night I got injured…the night that changed my life forever, but also the night that granted me the OPPORTUNITY and BLESSING to be a SURVIVOR in life!! The night I will always thank God for saving me. And the night I will also thank Patrick, for loving and protecting me unconditionally, for saving my life with his arms. He was my angel and I will always remember him! My lifelong goal was graduating from college! But it was never easy to accomplish... I had a LOT of bumps on the road. Even when I had a tragic car accident at the age of 19, I didn't give up and moved forward with those goals, now on two wheels :). I graduated with the highest honors in communication, Summa Cum Laude, awarded as the first commencement speaker in a wheelchair,at CSU Stanislaus, and also received the most prestigious award, selected out of all the graduates! It's just honestly one of the greatest days of my life ever! All my work paid off with all the awards I received! I felt like I was dreaming! It wasn't easy going back to school after I was injured, for sooo many reasons. During my undergrad I was hospitalized several times in ICU and I still graduated with the highest honors! But whatever you set your mind to, you can accomplish it with determination, faith and hard work! It was so amazing delivering a speech in front of 10,0000 people and to receive a huge standing ovation! Never give up on your dreams, whatever those might be, keep pushing always!! You can do anything! And always be proud of who YOU are, your roots and your journey!
The Scarred Survivor
"Every morning you have two choices: continue to sleep with your dreams, or wake up and chase them."
"Dream big and start NOW; Keep positive and keep pushing; No shortcuts, just hard work and fighting; Never give up no matter what."
Cancer Survivor || Cancer-free for 13 years! || Actor/Producer || Innovative Artists/The Katz Company
I was diagnosed with cancer when I was only 16. I was finally declared cancer free after years of chemotherapy and extensive surgeries. I used my newfound survivor tenacity to achieve a successful acting and modeling career. I have worked with the likes of Ashton Kutcher Productions, Amazon Studios, Netflix and Starz and can be seen as a guest star on NBC’s “The Blacklist.” I am signed to Wilhelmina Models and am represented by The Katz Company and Innovative Artists. I hope to inspire other survivors to use their drive to survive to empower their careers, their fitness goals, and improve the world.
The Fearless Fashionista
"You can wear all the greatest clothes and shoes but you need a good spirit inside. Then you’ll rock the world."
"Just a reminder that mammogramming your boobs is more important than instagramming them."
"Even when you’re going through a medical crisis, you can still be you."
My faith was strong, but that doesn’t mean the journey was easy. I needed a double mastectomy, 4 chemo sessions and 26 rounds of radiation.
And my hair! It sounds superficial, but I have to say it. I loved my hair. It was my signature. When I lost it, it was like I’d lost all my femininity.
But after all of it, I’m cancer free. I’m healthy! And my hair has grown back fuller and better. I run The Middle Page, a fashion blog I started two months before my diagnosis that’s still going strong. I make sure my readers know I’m a breast cancer survivor. It’s a privilege to help other women going through the same battle. I wouldn’t trade my life for anyone else’s, and I want other women to feel the same way.
"While those wrinkles and lines are hard to acknowledge sometimes, they are reminders to me about how wonderful life is. They have come from giving birth, raising children, battling breast cancer, and loving little grand children. I am definitely more comfortable in my skin and am not afraid of taking chances with life or lipstick!"
"Believe in yourself and never back down because your body is yours.""Food is Love. Love your food people.""Live courageously, eat real foods, keep exercising, love your bodies, keep dreaming, believe in yourself, inspire & help others."
The Marked Beauty
Elly is one to watch. She was already a successful model when she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. She documented her journey online, gained an inspired following, and continues to celebrate her survivorship by proudly baring her scars beauty marks on camera. We are in AWE of her optimism and love of life, and are humbled to have her wearing our Inspiration Choker.
"The way you are describing your life is the way it is manifesting."
"One thing I ask is for you to not feel sorry for me. I don't feel sorry for myself. I have lived a life I love and will continue to do so for however long I walk this earth. I am aware of my eventual demise, but are you?"
"Are you living the life you want?"
"Do you see any scars? Neither do I.. I see a beauty mark, given to me when I was reborn."
"Things tend to work themselves out.. unless your headphones are tangled."
"Find your fuel"
"I am choosing happiness over suffering. I suggest you try and do the same."
The tagline read: “Whether you are training for a marathon or killing cancer’s butt, you need great support.” The model was in a sports bra. A scar ran down her torso and she had no hair. It was me, and I was beautiful.
When I took that picture, I didn’t know whether I’d survive to see the end of the month. At 25, after landing my dream job as a flight attendant, I was diagnosed with advanced ovarian cancer. The prognosis wasn’t good. It would’ve been easy to curl up and retreat from public life. But I refused to give in.
I forged ahead and posed in more shoots, bald and scarred and fabulous. I made it through my first difficult year and ended up with over 500k supporters on social media. Raised in a tiny Canadian town of 50 people, I’ve now traveled to Australia, Montreal, San Francisco and New York and just signed with Dorothy Combs Models.
I didn’t know if I would make it through my first year or not. But I knew my images would last forever. That they would inspire other cancer fighters to keep their heads up high. You can be beautiful, even when you are going through hell.
When people see my figure they some times say "I wish I had your body" this sentence makes me cringe. I completely understand it is meant only as a compliment, and for the other 99% of population, it would be taken exactly as that. To me, it is a reminder that sometimes illnesses are invisible. It makes me want to tell them my story, all the things this body has made me go through, the needles, the pain and the frustration I've felt because of this body... would they still want it? Would they take it back upon seeing my scars? Or knowing I can't give birth? Maybe they would.Be kind to everyone you meet. Although some problems are more important than others, Everyone has something that isn't "perfect."
The Gold-Medal Gazelle
Hunter isn’t satisfied with being the best amputee runner. He is determined to be the best runner, period. He’s a hugely decorated athlete, with World and Paralympic titles, and he’s only about to graduate high school. We are in AWE of his dedication and inspiring achievements.
"They told me I could never walk, so I learned to run instead!"
"Life is short... Running makes it feel longer."
God First || Track and Field Athlete || Motivational Speaker || They told me I would never walk, so I learned to run instead.
"Never satisfied, always thankful!"
"Stay composed, stay focused, stay winning."
Gabrielle survived leukemia, founded a hugely successful all-natural beauty company, and blogs for the Huffington Post all before she turned 18. She’s truly unstoppable: we are so excited to see how she continues to build a career on inspiring others and are thrilled to have her wearing our Transformation Necklace.
"It's important to remember that people are people and no one is perfect! We are messy, broken and sometimes we fail! God understands we are not perfect so he has given us the gift of grace!"
"If you get the chance I hope your dance and always feel small when you stand beside the ocean."
"Simple things like being able to speak, walk, breath and wake up each day are huge gifts to be appreciated."
We were supposed to go on a trip to Hawaii. The doctor sat by my bed, though, and told me I couldn’t go because I was very sick. At age 10, I had just been diagnosed with leukemia that had spread to my liver. I was so angry I couldn’t go to Hawaii, but I had no idea what kind of journey lay ahead of me.I spent two and a half years battling cancer. I never thought of the alternative to not surviving. I remember countless nights in the hospital dreaming about the day I could go back to school, play sports and be “normal” again.During my chemotherapy, I made close friends. Some of my closest friends I lost. But the impact they left on the world and me is great. So I chose to turn my experience into a positive story I could share.I have been cancer-free now for 6 years. I’m a blogger for the Huffington Post. I founded the Frosting Company, a natural bath and beauty line selling online and in select Whole Foods locations. My sister Brittney and I bring celebrities to visit hospitals. I’m currently in the process of writing a book about my story. And I’m still a teenager!Being a survivor has taught me to live life to the fullest. I live a clean, healthy lifestyle. I appreciate the little things. I smile about everything and know how blessed I really am. And I always want to help others to live the same way.
"Life is not about what happens to you it is about what you make out of every situation!"
The Atomic Activist
"Dear Higher Power, Grant me the serenity of kicking some butt today and karate chop anyone slowing down my train of awesome! Amen" #mondaymotivation
"If you're not inspiring, you're doing it wrong." #thenextgen
HIV Activist & LGBT Advocate || Storyteller & Gummy Bear Aficionado || Chicago Top 30 Under 30 LGBT Leader || Honor41 LGBT Latinx Leader Award
After watching my partner be diagnosed with HIV, I noticed an unsettling absence of HIV negative young people advocating for HIV/AIDS awareness. So I dedicated my life to HIV education, PrEP, and transgender health equality.
For the past six years I’ve worked alongside people ready to end the AIDS epidemic for good. I also work to reduce the stigma around HIV, especially among young men who have sex with me. I’ve been featured on the CDC’s latest #DoingIt campaign, Ambiente Magazine, South Florida Gay News and Anderson Cooper LIVE!
I have recently funded #TheNextGen scholarship, designed to bring exposure to groundbreaking young voices to a domestic conference of their choice. The scholarship recipients will not only be provided with financial support, I’ve pledge to give them hands on mentorship on how to prepare for and network at their conference.
Self Care Shouldn’t Be A Reward…. But Should Be Routine…I am an exhausted advocate and social worker. Have a seat next to the hundreds of thousands of people like us who are burned out.Chances are you’re overwhelmed at life work. You have a ton of projects piling up at home, and your calendar is packed with overdue tasks. To make room for all of this stuff, you skip lunch, stop going to the gym, and forget about your social life entirely. When we’re stressed, self care is usually the first thing to go. And that only makes things worse.Take the ongoing battle for human rights, for instance, since we may have a long one ahead of us. In the months and years ahead, we will need to protest unjust policies, defend the vulnerable, donate time and money to Black Lives Matter and Planned Parenthood, and support politicians and legislation and organizations that promote the common good. But if we neglect ourselves, how will we do any of that? How will we possibly help?Self-care is not as easy as it sounds. It’s not just painting your toenails when you’re having a rough day. In her book From Coping to Thriving: How to Turn Self-Care Into A Way of Life, author Hannah Braime defines self-care as “behaviors that serve our emotional and physical health over the short-term and the long-term.” I would add that it also means reckoning honestly with yourself.Self-care is an essential social work survival skill. Self-care refers to activities and practices that we can engage in on a regular basis to reduce stress and maintain and enhance our short- and longer-term health and well-being. Self-care is necessary for your effectiveness and success in honoring your professional and personal commitments.Taking care of yourself is not actually a new thing, nor is the idea that you may sometimes need to be reminded to do so. Just think of all the people on makeover-shows past who were told, “You spend so much time taking care of other people, it’s time to do something *for yourself.”Remember, by being your best self you’re able to share those beautiful feelings with those around you. Search for the good, share your peace, and watch the positivity grow.
The Bionic Actress
Angel is about to become a household name, we know it!! Hollywood is finally starting to embrace our beloved Bionic Actress, who has become an icon and inspiration for the amputee community (hence why her Inspiration Choker is so fitting!). We are in AWE of her infectious smile, her pure kindness, and her trailblazer attitude.
"I survive everyday in a world that wasn’t designed for me.""Live your life the way you want to live it #bodyhacker #cyborg.""Ten fingers are overrated! You are capable & all you need is to put in the time & work to 'figure it out.'"
Louisiana Actress || Congenital Amputee || Youngest Bionic Arm User || Public Speaker || Psychology Grad Student || 13th Gate Scare Actor || White Rabbit Project || The Hunger Games || Rep'd by KMRtalent
I was born without a left arm below my elbow (technically, I’m a Congenital Amputee). I am a pioneer in the bionic prosthetics community, often demoing new robotic arms in early trials. I am also an actress with a quickly rising star, a philanthropist, and an icon in the amputee community. For years, I have fought against Hollywood stereotypes while searching for on-screen roles. But in the past year alone, I have filmed 2 national commercials (one of which aired at the Super Bowl), the Netflix Show “The White Rabbit Project,” and I’ll be seen in the upcoming major motion picture Speech & Debate in theaters this April.
I’m an advocate for the Amputee Coalition and a representative of the Lucky Fin Project, two organizations that empower young amputees to live dynamic lives. I try to live my life showing people that differences are important and what make the world great! Every day we survive in this world making choices—whether in our behavior or attitude—and it’s important to work to make brave choices. The ones that seem scary are probably the right ones that let us go on making the most of our lives.
Yesterday was a first for me. It was the first time I went to an audition not wearing my prosthesis - without the role calling for me to be an #amputee. I read the sides/script for the audition and I realized my #bionic arm wouldn't fit into the film. I started thinking about how hiding my cosmetic arm/lack of an arm would be difficult with the plot of the film. I thought maybe I don't need to go to this audition.But then it occurred to me, why couldn't this character have one arm? I've been saying this in interviews for months now but I hadn't gone for it. I keep saying I want to eventually be able to walk into a casting for a 20 something female and not have a prosthesis on (or have on my bionic arm) and have it be okay with the director/casting director - because we exist. The character having one arm wasn't going to change who she was or her goals in the film so I thought, I'm going to do this. I'm going to admit, I was a little nervous. On top of having to remember my dialogue and concentrate on the character - I was thinking about how they were going to acknowledge, or in this case ignore, my arm. Everything went like a normal audition. No one even glanced at my little arm. I guess that could be a good thing but honestly I felt like it was okay to be acknowledged. I'm not embarrassed or ashamed and I'll explain my reasoning to anyone who is interested. I'm glad I did this and even if I don't get the part in the end - I'll definitely be auditioning armless again if I feel it works with the role :)
Just to clarify, I'm missing my LEFT hand and front-facing cameras reverse images. The "her missing hand keeps changing" comments are cracking me up. ALSO follow up answer to the popular inevitable 360° wrist rotation question. Yes, I can screw in lightbulbs and screws with it!
Fatima is surviving an invisible illness every single day. That doesn’t stop her from building a personal training business, chasing her modeling dreams, and making documentary films. We are in AWE of her daily resilience: she’s a fighter you don’t want to mess with!
"I don’t worry about what fulfills another person. The smallest thing could fulfill me for one day."
"My surface is vague. My mind and spirit are full of so much more."
"I use every bit of strength I have within my body and fight against this syndrome."
You see it all the time. A woman on TV goes into a panic, faints, then poof! Friends are fanning her face until she gets back up. Like its nothing.
For me, it was far from nothing. On August 12, 2012, when I suffered a head injury after fainting, my life changed forever. I was left with post-concussion syndrome. Four years later, I still have throbbing headaches and I’m sensitive to noise and light. Not to mention the mental battles.
For the first two and a half years I let my life dwindle away. Now I use every bit of strength I have in my body to fight this syndrome.
I’ve decided to pay attention everyday to my mind, spirit, and body. And I empower others to do the same as a certified professional trainer. I’m still freelancing as a model and I can’t wait to get signed to an agency again. Plus I’m working on a documentary to shed light on invisible illnesses.
It’s a lot to take on with PCS. My faith has been tested. My friendships, purpose in life and patience have been tested. But they’ve all been strengthened too. I might be living with PCS, but I’m also living strong.
My intentions are pure & my character shows that to be true. If you choose to only focus on the layer of the skin; whether it be the color of it or the look of it, you have a very narrow mind because there is much depth to the soul beyond the flesh. So I'm not scared to post this photo anymore. #indiginous #indigenouswomenrise #primal #bodyscapes #physique #female #anatomy
The Purple Winged Phoenix
"Take charge of your life, and demand joy. It is your right to have joy and peace."
"When you use your voice, you give others permission to use theirs."
"Respect the fact that you’re still standing. There is peace in that."
I walked in a woman with a newfound sense of hope. I walked out a broken soul. A sex slave.
My father, a Vietnam veteran, took his PTSD symptoms out on my mother. Still caught up in the cycle of domestic abuse, I dated and married men who beat and raped me. Sexual violence was not new to me. As a single mother, I worked as an exotic dancer and escort.
When I moved to Memphis, I decided to start over. Then I met two men outside of a club and followed them to a breakfast diner. There, one of them pressed his cold gun into my thigh. That night, I began my brief stint in hell.
As a sex slave I was stalked, threatened and raped daily by my guerilla pimp. I begged for death. I thought God hated me, but God had another plan.
I stood up to my pimp. I told him he could kill me but I would never sell myself again. Surprisingly, he let me go.
I promised if I was saved I would help save others. So I shared my story in a TEDx talk. I recently published The Green Light of Forgiveness, a meditation on how to forgive others to take full control of your own life. And I founded the Purple W.I.N.G.S. Organization which mentors women and girls who have been sexually assaulted, abused, trafficked or stalked.
I have torn off my mask of shame and guilt. I am survivor. And I am finally living.
People look at me, and immediately feel calm and become soothed by my aura. I am thankful for this. However, they don't know the work that it takes to achieve this peace. They are only aware of the outcome. Silence and alone time is my companion. It is when I am open to receive my missions, creativity, and direct connection with the divine.
So when you are in awe of someone’s ability to be calm in this storm we call life; think about the work it took for them to build their raft of survival.
Loving a wild woman is difficult because she can't be tamed. She is confident in who and what she is and doesn't need you to tell her. She is fiercely independent as the leader of her pack but desires to be led by a strong King.
What worked with other Lionesses won't work with her because after all she taught them.
You mustn't be timid, or beat around the bush. She needs it direct, and honest. At any time if she smells fear, apprehension, or the playing of games, you've lost her.
Be prepared to love this free spirit unconditionally, and you'll receive so much love and respect in return.
The Vogue Icon
"Built to inspire; work in silence, let success be your noise."
"If you don’t tell your story right, someone else will tell it wrong"
Born and raised in Harlem, I’ve dedicated my life to dance. At a young age I ran away from an abusive home where I was deprived of food and education and beaten regularly. I found solace in the Village where members of the thriving LGBT community took me and my brother in. I learned the art of Vogueing, a form of dance that displays the contours of the body through enhanced flexibility and finesse. I was deemed a legendary ICON in the underground “Ballroom” community and founded the first ever Vogue Dance company “Vogue Evolution,” whose mission is to spread messages of social justice and HIV prevention through Vogueing.Throughout my career, I have choreographed for music industry icons including Ashanti, Shaggy, Remy Martin, Fergie and Mariah Carey. I travel internationally teaching Master Classes and advocating for HIV education and prevention. My goal is to inspire others to relentlessly embrace any obstacle that comes their way.
I may cry because I have smiled. I can run because I have walked. I will give because there was a time that I had stolen. I will learn because I am willing to teach. I will heal someone because I have hurt someone. I will share for those that has taken from me. I will give because there maybe a time that I cannot. I will guide because I will follow. I am standing because I have fought. I know forgiveness because I have lied. I will receive because I am worth it.I will live because I have survived. I will die one day because I HAVE LIVED.In order to know who I am, I must experience what I am not. In order to be the light, one must know the dark.
People always ask me if I am in a relationship or am I not. A very general question expecting a personal answer. All there is outside of me are relationships. I tell you this... When my mind desires relationship, I call that companionship. When my body desires relationship. That's called sexuality. When my emotion desires relationship, I call that Love. When my energy desires relationship. I call that Unity or yoga. When I experience all four. I am deep in it.Now the accurate question wouldn't be question of relationship but in whom do I place my desires and are they fulfilled?
The Unreckonable Force
An ACE score of 10, an abusive childhood, and a disease that could have ended her life. Instead, Victoria has transformed into a mentor, therapist, and leader for others battling PTSD and mental illness, giving back however she can. We are in AWE of her ability to heal herself and others, and thank her for wearing our Transformation Necklace, which commemorates the events that have shaped her into the thriver she is today.
"My body is a space where wars have occurred, ones I've both lost and won. My body is not here to be sexualized; it's here to be honored for putting up one hell of a fight."
"I heard something today that made a lot of sense about the human condition and simultaneously made me chuckle: the truth always liberates us, but first it usually pisses us off."
"A year from now, you will have wished you already started. So start now."
STL || Healing Arts Director at TINSTL || Self-Care Coach || Integrative Therapist || Writer || Survivor || Stories in Healing, Transparency, & When Life Hits the Fan || Stay Weird
The battle wasn’t easy. I’m a survivor of Addison’s disease, domestic violence, childhood neglect and sexual assault. My ACE score is 10. I learned to sleep on top of my mom when I was 3 to protect her. I shared a lot of time with strangers who babysat me. Some were very abusive.
My hard working immigrant parents tried to create a life for us, but their marriage imploded. My father was thrown into prison despite his deteriorating mental health. My resilient mother was left to pick up the pieces. In my early twenties, my health greatly declined and I contemplated ending my life until I was diagnosed with addison's disease and complex PTSD.
I posted a vulnerable picture on Instagram and that was a turning point. True healing started when I realized I wasn’t alone. I have picked up the pieces, built a spectacular mosaic and healed.
Today, I’m a licensed holistic therapist, self-care coach, writer, and Healing Arts Director of the Trauma Informed Network in St. Louis. And I achieved one of my biggest goals: to run my own wellness and yoga studio.
My life post-survival is filled with gratitude. I know that by being vulnerable about my own healing process, I could give a voice to others who feel isolated in their struggle.
I was convinced so many times that you had abandoned me, left me to the demise of my own self-sabotage, kept me hungry for a sense of worth i could never feel. I was convinced you wanted to keep me sick. I told myself over and over that we were broken. I romanticized my struggle, each mile of pain that ate me whole.
I couldn't see past what I had learned. I couldn't see past what this world had taught me and what trauma had etched into my sight; I was hollow and starving to survive. One day I began to resist the conditioning that burned wounds into my belly, every sting sharper than the last, until I could feel that you were always with me: you, my beautiful body, my gentle flesh, fought endlessly to keep me alive. It was I that had abandoned you. It was me who had shut the door and still you loved me. You loved me through each reckless attempt of saving myself. You patiently waited until I learned that we were friends, that we could work together, and heal.
I began to trust you; to practice the radical act of being embodied, having a body, a body that was mine. I rejected the fear of you being taken away from me. I began to love you, respect you, nurture you, and you became my home; a space of safety that was taken away from me so long ago. I accept that the tender weight of being human deserves to make a mess. My body is no longer a place of dissonance; powerful and wild, my stardust is your soul food. I show up despite the resistance, and my sweet sting inflames the heart of those who have burned me. My body and I, we are a lighthouse in my own storm, and to love myself is a revolution.
I often get asked, so I've decided to tell the chronology of my tattoos. First one is a lotus flower, it's my favorite because it grows in muddy waters. I got it when I weighed just under 100 pounds, bone thin, sickly and struggling to figure out what was happening to my body. Below is my inner child and I doing my favorite yoga pose, Viparita Karani, or legs up the wall (great for when you're stressed). She and I have grown to be very close.Many of us know, especially with trauma, that re-parenting ourselves is inevitable. Below that is Twin Sisters Peak, one of my favorite mountain hikes in Colorado, with the phrase "be vulnerable," which is a motto I deeply live by. Below that is a portrait of myself I drew when I was 7, along with the phrase "I'm here, we're safe" because letting the wounded child inside me know she is safe and I won't ever let anything bad happen to her again is why I've been able to heal.
The Carcinoma Queen
"The key to survival is never feeling sorry for yourself."
"Do something kind for someone else every single day."
I’m a Licensed Esthetician and I’ve spent the past 15 years working in upscale beauty salons around the Tri-State area. I was diagnosed with invasive carcinoma breast cancer at the young age of 37. After a partial lumpectomy, 4 rounds of chemotherapy, and 6 weeks of radiation, I was declared cancer-free last August!My cancer journey opened my eyes to how valuable life is and forced me to live outside my comfort zone. The day after I finished treatment I had the words “FEED YOUR SOUL” tattooed to my arm, a reminder to do things that truly make my soul feel alive.Last month I followed my decade-long dream to move to Charlotte, NC and began working as a Medical Esthetician. Every day I make sure to make someone else smile, through large gestures like serving on the Board of Patient Advocacy for David’s Dream and Believe Cancer Foundation or small ones like sending random sweet texts to my friends and family.
Life really is unlimited once you become FEARLESS!! FEAR is just a state of mind that we feed anyway. Once you learn to STOP giving fear POWER, it has NO CHANCE of winning. Once you understand that, life becomes much easier.There were a lot of things I feared before I got cancer, but the beauty of that disease is that it makes you FEARLESS!So HOW did I do this? Wasn’t I SCARED?No, I wasn’t scared. I was simply UNEDUCATED about the beast that had entered my life. But I KNEW that the GOOD in me was MUCH STRONGER than some cells that decided to act up.Within minutes of being told, “You DO have cancer,” I DECIDED that cancer was NEVER going to win against ME! I ENVISIONED myself getting STRONGER and HEALTHIER… EVERY DAMN DAY!!!*SECRET: I never capitalized the word cancer, anywhere. It was a little game I played with myself, because to me, CAPITALIZING it, meant giving it POWER.
It took me getting cancer and being brought to my lowest point, to TRULY begin to open my eyes to what LIVING is REALLY all about.I started asking myself, “Why was I feeling so unfulfilled?” Why did I feel like a dusty old match, just waiting to be IGNITED so that I could show the world my BRILLIANCE and that I really DO have a fire within me.I always knew I was CAPABLE of SO MUCH MORE! I just didn’t know how to go about unveiling my greatness. It wasn’t until I decided to take a chance and FOLLOW MY CURIOSITY on how a stranger, whose life I admired, was able to live the life of his DREAMS.I decided to connect with him and it has been the BEST decision that I’ve made in a very long time! That single connection has opened up a world for me that I knew nothing about. I have been mingling with LIKE-Minded GO-GETTERS who TAKE ACTION! They aren’t AFRAID to GO AFTER their dreams and are living lives that I TRULY admire.This time around, I AM the ARCHITECT OF MY LIFE and I am literally DESIGNING the LIFE of MY DREAMS!Stay tuned for GREATNESS!!
The Little Engine That Did
"A box is an enclosed object… stifling and preventing progress. It appears comfortable but it’s not where I’ve chosen to be.""You don't need anyone to tell you or show you how much you're worth. You don't need anyone to validate the things that YOU accomplish in YOUR life. Life is filled with endless possibilities that allow you to grow and learn about yourself! Don't let people decide that for you. Tell Yourself. #getupknowingyourworth"
Model || NYC || Warby Parker || Cosmopolitan & Elle South Africa || Q-NY | Front Fusion-CPT ||
Pregnant. Jobless. Living at home. These were the expectations for someone like me. College graduate. Signed model. Commercials, magazines, billboards. New York City. That’s how much I proved everyone wrong.My father was incarcerated when I was one year old and my mother was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when I was nine. When my grandmother died, I ended up in a foster home. When my mother visited me, we were always watched by strangers.Most people are shocked that I never resented my parents. How could I? We’re all survivors. My mom fought with her mental illness and the state to regain custody of me. My dad fought to survive prison, which he is released from in a month. (I can’t wait to show him cellphones and computers!)Every time I saw my father he told me I was a princess who deserved anything in the world. He didn’t tuck me in at night, but he gave me the confidence to be a strong black woman. He dreamed big for me.Those dreams came true. My parents, my God and my resilience have made me one of a kind. All of our stories are still unfolding. And I can’t wait to live the rest of mine.
"You were never meant to fade into the background. Forever a queen || no matter the crown."
The Anxiety Thriver
Quentin’s life is filled with blood, sweat, and tears. He defied the odds of his upbringing by overcoming addiction, mental illness, and poverty. Today he is a celebrated mental health advocate on a mission to teach the world mindfulness and gratitude. He wears a Signature Medallion to honor the blood, sweat, and tears that defined his journey.
"To the ones who diagnosed my gifts as disorders: you were wrong."
"Remember to put on your oxygen mask first because YOU matter!"
"My life isn’t easier… I’ve just gotten stronger."
Author of Strong In The Broken Places (Rodale/May 30, 2017) || Father || Speaker || Anxiety Thriver || Wellness Expert || Mental Health Advocate
Statistics estimated that my life expectancy would not exceed 21 years. My father was a heroin addict and my mother struggled to support us in Baltimore, one of the most dangerous cities in America.
At 26, I had beaten the statistic. But I was also diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, and major depressive disorder. I was given medication promised to heal me. I ended up spending 2 years battling my addiction to it.
After surviving an accidental overdose and two failed suicide attempts, I reached my lowest point. But it was the force from my fall that gave me the momentum to regain control of my life.
I replaced late-night partying with early morning meditation. I swapped bottles of wine for glasses of green juice. I began each day with a gratitude prayer. I began to heal.
Today I am a public speaker, mental health advocate and author of a forthcoming memoir: Strong in the Broken Places. I’ve been recognized by the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention and I work with nonprofits to bring mindfulness teachings to inner city schools.
I’m an addict and will always be an addict. But I’ve dedicated myself to a life of sustainable health and healing. And I work tirelessly to help others do the same.
This woman is one of my greatest inspirations! To say that I am in awe of her would be an understatement.
When I found the courage to share my story of overcoming anxiety, depression and prescription drug addiction, I committed myself to doing work that mattered; work that made a difference; work that changed the lives and conditions of those who read and received it.
Now I have a book set for release in less than 3 months and I have to credit the beautiful, talented, angelic Ava DuVernay with being one of the motivating forces behind it! Just from the stories she's told, I was able to see the importance of my own journey, and why my story needed to be told.
Thank you Ava for your raw storytelling and your willingness to share stories that start progressive conversations. Thank you for your selflessness and vulnerability; your heart, your spirit and your genius! You are a blessing and I have so much love, respect and admiration for you.
Bullied to Beautiful
I came into this world fighting. I was born severely premature, in shock and not breathing. But my fight didn’t end there. I endured constant and relentless bullying from age 9 until I graduated high school. I was beaten up, tormented on a daily basis, spit at and verbally assaulted. I spent a great deal of time at home, as I didn’t want to have to go to school and face my bullies. I would dream of running away and even considered ending my life to stop the constant emotional and physical pain I felt. There were not anti-bullying programs when was growing up and I had little support and no friends. Until I found the arts. I found solace in dance and music. This was what helped me cope and begin to find my voice. My experience through the arts was healing and empowering. I moved to New York City at a young age to pursue my career in dance and soon found that I loved to sing, and began pursuing my singing career. In addition to writing, performing and producing my own shows in New York City, I have dedicated my life to using my voice to speak for others who cannot. I consider myself an anti-bullying activist and feel strongly that we need to walk through our lives with empathy and compassion for others. I have advocated at schools and have spent a tremendous amount of time working with children, through the arts, to help them learn to communicate, appreciate each other as individuals, to celebrate their individuality and be proud of who they are. Everyone has a story and we need to remember that before we judge. I feel strongly that we need to be an example for our children.I am the proud mother of two, now grown daughters. My youngest daughter was cyberbullied when she was fourteen. We took the person to court after they threatened to kill my daughter in a blog… and won. My children had the benefit of anti-bullying laws and programs that are now in schools, and a Mom that was active and aware.I wrote a show called “Bullied to Beautiful”, which chronicles’ my story of the years I was bullied as a child, set to the music that helped me cope. The first line I speak in my show is, “Hello my name is Lisa Jason, and I’m a survivor”.I hope to keep the conversation going, create community and awareness around a subject that is still at epidemic proportions in our world today. I also volunteer and teach dance with a ballet company here in New York City, for dancers of all abilities and also create and teach expressive arts programs for children and adults who are developmentally disabled.The arts helped me heal my heart. Now I use the arts to heal others. I am a survivor!!!!!
The Blissful Bohemian
Savannah has lived with a serious heart condition her entire life. She’s reached the brink of death twice due to heart failure. But instead of living in fear, she lives a life that is #ALIVEandEMPOWERED. She has her degree in Chemical Engineering, can run a 7:30 mile, and is a successful freelance model. We are in AWE of her strength and resilience!
"There is no elevator to success. You have to take the stairs."
"Be kind, for everyone you know is fighting a battle you know nothing about."
I have clinically died twice. But I never gave up. I never gave in to the comfort. Even at a young age, I knew I had a purpose. And I would survive to see it through.I was born with Tetralogy of Fallot. No, it’s not a geometry problem. It’s a congenital disease of the heart. There’s missing parts, extra parts, parts too big, parts too small, even holes. I needed experimental open heart surgery when I was born in 1994. Chances of survival were bleak, but my outlook wasn’t. By the power of medicine, Grace, and my own strength I, Savannah Bölin, am 22 years old and can boast a 7:30 mile run. Oh, and I’m a chemical engineer.It has taken 11 surgeries to get to this point. It has taken a childhood in and out of hospitals, watching my parents cry for years, losing hospital friends who didn’t make it. It has taken not knowing if I would kick it at any moment.I still have to fight with the anxiety this experience has left me with. It’s a fight I give my everything to, though. I currently work as a chemical engineer, model, and blogger. My busy lifestyle can be a burden on this disorder. But I know I am stronger than it.
I get a lot of questions about my scar, and if you couldn't already guess, it's from open heart surgery. I've got a pretty messed up ticke. It takes me twice as long to build cardiovascular endurance, and I've had to closely monitor my condition for the past 22 years (all my life). It would be easy to use this as an excuse to not prioritize fitness and exercise. It would be easy to give up when I, a certified PT, can barely keep up in spin class. The only limits that exist are the ones that we create for ourselves. No matter what is impeding you, whatever excuse you can conjure, however uninspired or incapable you feel... it is all irrelevant. So get out there, and work fearlessly and relentlessly towards your goals, even if it takes you twice as long. Do not let your shortcomings discourage you, but rather, fuel your desire for success. I promise, you will not regret the choice to put forth effort & overcome.
It's so easy to make a mistake with your diet or miss a workout and then just want to quit and give up on your health/fitness goals! But... that's kinda like getting a flat tire and getting so upset that you slash the other 3 tires! I know that I'm certainly not perfect by any means. I sometimes binge late night or skip the gym for days in a row. But yet, I progress. Why? Because even though I may slip up, I NEVER give up. Self forgiveness is so important!!! So you ate cheese fries last night because you were upset? Wake up, forgive yourself, and kill it at the gym! The only thing that matters is that you keep going.
The Courageous Covergirl
It’s hard not to be in AWE of Dawn: she was literally a Vogue supermodel! But even more impressively, she uses her voice to stand up against bullying and help survivors feel spiritually beautiful. Beauty, brains, and heart, that’s why we are in AWE of Dawn.
"The things you think are your flaws, you need to show with pride."
"The best beauty secret is confidence."
"My mission and purpose is to remind you how spiritually beautiful you are."
Beauty Expert Best selling Author || Humanitarian || @iconicfocus model || QVC Host || Cover Model Vogue Italia, Bazaar & Cosmopolitan
I was terribly bullied when I was a teenager. For my neck. For my long limbs. Also for the fact that I was different. When a photographer told me he thought I could be a model, I shrugged him off at first. Because of the bullying I had no self esteem. The things I thought were my flaws, though, turned out to be my biggest assets.As a model I made it onto covers of Cosmopolitan and Bazaar. But I was told by my agent my career would end when I turned 25 and that women are not considered beautiful after a certain age. After traveling to Calcutta, I realized beauty had no expiration date. I met and worked with Mother Theresa and saw someone who radiated beauty from the inside out. I learned that being beautiful was not just physical and superficial. There is depth in beauty. It's how we serve and help other people.As a host, writer, and video producer, I spread the message that beauty has no expiration date. I’m an on-air expert for the shopping networks. I’m an Iconic Focus model and proud to represent beauty and fashion as ageless. When I look at photos from my teenage years, I notice my face was blank because I did not have the life experiences that I have now: love, loss, birth and death. Now when I take a picture, you can see it in my eyes. My beauty is in my wisdom and experience.
Another day at the office, from last year on Bravo’s TV show Below Deck and didn't see the camera dude sneaking up behind me with those rainbow socks!
Never a dull moment on a reality TV show or as an on-air host as it's not reality at all! First of all ...the cameras are on you nonstop and you never know what will be edited or on the cutting room floor. The cast and crew on Bravo’s Below Deck were a delight to work with and very professional. Plus sailing around the British Virgin Islands on a yacht isn't bad either with your best friends!
The Melanoma Marvel
"If it’s happening, it needs to."
"The point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far into the future, you will live your way into the answer."
"The bravest thing I ever did was to rescue myself. I could have easily fallen victim to my circumstances, but I knew I deserved better. So I forged my will, kicked, screamed, rewrote my story, fought against fate and here I am. Living, breathing, evolving through all things wondrous and painful. I can finally say... it feels good to feel good."
I am Heidi. I am a proud American. I fit in no box. I am not all or nothing of any social issue because my life isn't black and white. I require no labels. I am not who I vote for. I am a strong, bright, cheerful, educated, female, amputee, cancer survivor. I believe happiness is an inside job. I am part Native American, Polish and African American (yes I'm proud to claim them all) and I am a redhead with tattoos, green eyes and freckles. I am a proud mom of 3.
The Survival Seargent
After serving our country and surviving sexual assault in the process, LaTanga has devoted her life to empowering other female veterans. We are in AWE of her selflessness, bravery, and patriotism, and are honored to have her as one of our original AWE community members.
“Giving back to my fellow veterans is the most rewarding part of my life."
"Hold your head high with dignity and respect."
The Conscious Fashion Champion
"Stop trying to blend in when you were born to stand out.""Too many people overvalue what they’re not and undervalue what they are."
My mission is to elevate socially-conscious fashion to the highest echelons of the style world in order to inspire a true shift in industry values. I am the Global Director for Suzy Amis Cameron’s Red Carpet Green Dress Campaign, showcasing sustainable fashion on the red carpet at the Oscars every year. My startup THE TRIBE is a global collective created for women to empower and celebrate each other. And I’m an advocate for Women for Women International, which provides practical and moral support for women survivors of war.
A few years back a house fire destroyed a great deal of my belongings. This hugely distressing moment served as a personal and professional reset: the literal rebuilding of my home became symbolic for the blossoming of my new career. I'm more focussed than ever on positively impacting the people and the planet around me through advocacy and nonprofit work.
I am slowing getting closer to nailing my true, online voice. Until recently I didn’t realise this was even a disconnect that I had but 2016 has consistently been a year of growth (in a non-prescripted way kumbayah way) and discovering more about myself and how I can get in my own way sometimes. Namely, that I hold back a little too much of my personality when I post online. The posts I have felt the best about have always been the ones where I am not doing being reserved at all. However, in my defense, the reasons I have always been a little reserved online are legitimate, if not only because they are based on true feelings and real experiences.I have always been told how young I look (I’m 5'2" and size 6 on average) and so I realised recently that that has manifested in me wanting to act older for such a long time, to being more reserved in public than I actually am when I am with my friends and family. All to be ‘taken seriously’. I even stopped smiling in pictures for a while because someone told me I looked too young when I smiled. That was a bye Felicia moment if ever I had one. The people who know me know that I am a loose canon, known to drive like a formula one race car driver, talk (quite/very) loudly whilst thinking I am whispering and not fearful of any obstacle between me and something I want. More and more I am finding ways to translate more of this me: into my content and it feels good. I do not agree that we are all online for validation, despite how it may seem when we look at the growing audience across our generations social media platforms. We are online because we all want someone to be a witness to our lives. That we existed, that the choices we made mattered and had impact, and that we manage to touch and inspire some other people along the way. Another reason for my reservations is because it is a crowded party. I will never be that person who is the loudest person at the party, but I am always one of the most lively ones. This ‘group-shyness’ seems to have translated to the noisy and crowded world of online fashion blogs and social media. Am I funny enough? Is this smart enough? Is this interesting enough? Sod it – it’s me, and that will surely do?This is where fashion comes in to save the day… to save me from my (sometimes) over analytical self! For me fashion has been a private and public, lively, bold, and always eye opening conversation with a silent collaborator – I know that I am not the only person who feels this way either! Anyone who loves fashion uses it in the way that I do – to share their personality and sides of who they are whilst gaining more and more confidence, and becoming more vocal about other sides of their personalities. May we continue to find ourselves and discover who we are through creative outlets.
The Kancer Killer
"It was finally time for me to define this experience instead of letting it define me & after years, it was time to finally start SURVIVING." #micdrop
"Cancer isn’t a game so I cringe when I hear the terms “winning and losing.” We are all survivors and fighters."
"I'll tell you one thing, cancer... You may have raided my body before, but I kicked your a** and you'll never touch my spirit."
Cancer touched my life a little over 7 years ago, and it didn't just go away once I got rid of it. Cancer is something that will always have an impact on my life and future. I could sit here and go on about all the negative things that it has done to me, my health, and how it completely took away my childhood.
But 7 years later, as I think of all the ways cancer has changed my life, what first comes to mind is everything but those negative things; instead, it's all the amazing organizations I have been able to become a part of, all the inspiring, kind-hearted people that I have had the privilege to meet, and it’s the courage and determination that I now have after fighting cancer, to help other children and young adults going through the life threatening illness.
This is the story behind Kasie Helpz Kidz, and what gave me the drive and determination to develop a non-profit helping children with cancer. Our Kidz range from ages 0-19, and we strive to continuously provide them with a strong support system, as well as their guardians, during and after their courageous battle against cancer.
Cancer isn't a game so I cringe when I hear the terms "winning and losing". We all have our own opinions but in my mind we are all survivors and fighters. What does survivor mean to me? For years I was letting cancer completely take over my life, it was the the topic of a first conversation with someone I had never met before & it was the fear that I would have every night before I went to sleep.Every moment in my life that I thought I was finally getting a break from it, it seemed like it was time for another yearly scan or it was taking the life of a loved one. For me, medicine and hospital stays were only a small part of this fight, most of it has been feelings...feelings of being scared, helpless, sad, happy...just lots & lots of different feelings...it was realizing that the most important things in life...well they aren't even really things at all & instead they are moments & relationships. Just a few months ago, I needed a break, for me. I needed to just sit and think, & remember my purpose again.We all go through these traumas, these hard times, no matter what it is but it's how we handle it and how we grow from them that matter. This doesn't mean that you are expected to write a book or change the world, sometimes it's just silence, sometimes it's something small, and thats okay. So these few months have been the silence I needed.After finding a mass last year in my neck and feeling like I was completely losing control of my body, my mind, & my soul, I needed to remind myself that I had the choice to take control. It was finally time for me to define this experience instead of letting it define me & after years, it was time to finally start SURVIVING. #micdrop
The Dainty Diamond
Kayleigh is an anorexia recovery warrior. She may be “dainty” but she is tough and mighty, sharing her recovery struggles in heartfelt posts to her followers. We are in AWE of her commitment to positivity and love how our Serenity Choker works with her AWE-some aesthetic.
"I do not share my story because I demand sympathy or recognition. I share my story to help even one person ask for help. I do it to help break the stigma surrounding mental illness. Because that's what it means to be a survivor.""I’m beginning to measure my worth in memories I create and the challenges I conquer, not pounds."
Mental Health Advocate || Body Positive Feminist || Recovering from Anorexia Nervosa || Learning to Live a Positive Lifestyle
Because that's what it means to be a survivor. I never thought of myself as a survivor, even with the countless hospital trips and times my mental disorders have tried to kill me. I think stigma has a lot do with this. Because isn't coming back from an illness that made you starve yourself to the brink of death the definition of a survivor?Anorexia has the highest mortality rate of any mental disorder. I'm still surviving it. I'm surviving the ways it challenges me daily and the permanent damage it has inflicted upon my body.I do not share my story because I demand sympathy or recognition. I share my story to help even one person ask for help. I do it to help break the stigma surrounding mental illness.
The Lymphoma Barbie
“Stop rushing around, life is meant to be lived.”
“We all have two lives: the second one starts when we realize that we only have one.”
M i a m i || Stage 4 Cancer Survivor || Author of "Talk Cancer to Me" || Diva!
Having cancer is one of the scariest things in the world. But you are NOT alone!In my book Talk Cancer to Me, I explain my initial terror at my unexplained symptoms, and the mounting stress as none out of myriad different specialists could help me. Finally, after landing in urgent care, I was officially diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, an aggressive type of cancer. But I was determined to beat it. I always seek out laughter in the face of difficult situations. While buoyantly recounting parties in the ICU and flirting with cute doctors, I also openly detail some of the physical and emotional challenges I experienced as a cancer patient. I do my best to provide definitions for terms that doctors may gloss over and practical tips for fellow patients as they step through their own treatment process. From wig shopping to the best diet when undergoing radiation therapy, I sincerely hope my genuine advice and experiences will help you replace fear and uncertainty with hope and clarity. I am currently working as a Pharmaceutical Sales Rep in Miami, but writing and sharing my journey with others is my true passion. I hope to continue writing and continue sharing my journey, since cancer definitely doesn't end after remission! I live my life in the now, for the present moment, which was something I was never able to do. I'm much more about living life to the fullest and doing all of the things that I want, because we never know what tomorrow brings… especially as cancer survivors!
I used to dread getting older before cancer, because of what society tells us we should be. 30 in today's society equals married with kids, which is a great accomplishment for some, but in my case, I've learned never to settle. Ever. As I approach 30, I spent a year fighting for my life. I went through salvage chemo and had my entire body radiated. I have burns all over my body to prove it. I purchased my first piece of property, which doesn't really mean anything at all to me--another thing "society" says we should be able to do by 30. I've met so many cancer fighters and survivors throughout the world that have become some of my closest friends. But most importantly, I survived something that I thought would kill me, and learned so many lessons that it usually takes most people a lifetime to learn. I found my true passion and wrote a book about it. They say cancer is a curse and a blessing. I wouldn't trade it for anything. I now know the real meaning of life. Stop rushing around, life is meant to be lived. If you're reading this, you're one of the lucky ones that has the privilege to be alive.
The Leukemia Wakeboarder
Heads up: Alexa is a total badass. At 16 she was an all-state gymnast when she wasdiagnosed with Chronic Myeloid Leukemia. 10 years later, she still lives with cancer but is absolutely thriving as a professional wakeboarder. No really: she travels the world competing, reps the top wakeboarding brands, appears on ESPN, and is even publishing a memoir depicting her cancer journey this fall. We’re in AWE of how she’s defied expectations and embraces the AWEsomeness of the world around her.
“Pause, take a deep breath, and take advantage of the beauty around us.”“Take advantage of the opportunity to look and feel good from the inside out while giving your body the best chance at a long, healthy, and happy life. You won’t regret it.”“What makes you happy? Corn dogs, loon hats, and good friends do the trick for me. :)”
Professional Wakeboarder || Adventurer || Writer || Cancer Fighter #SKOL #pantslessrevolution www.alexarscore.com
I was diagnosed with Chronic Myeloid Leukemia as a sixteen year old growing up in a small Minnesota town. At the time, I was an all-state gymnast, ranked at the top of my class in academics, and had the world at my fingertips, so being diagnosed with cancer was quite a shock. Shortly after diagnosis, I grew very ill. The prognosis of my situation was unclear, as I opted not to have a bone marrow transplant and instead tried a very new and relatively unknown drug called Gleevec. As the weeks passed, my cancer counts miraculously dropped, but I grew sicker and sicker by the day. I slept 16-20 hours, relied on friends and family to drive/carry me to class. I couldn’t eat and was too weak to even stand in the shower. My biggest struggle was with bone pain. It felt like my bones were exploding all-day everyday.One of my darkest moments came one morning while lying alone in my bed. I was shocked and devastated when I was too weak to sit up. Forced to stay laying down, I contemplated life and wondered how long one can live in that state. In the weeks that followed, my cancer counts continued to drop, but the pain grew worse. I was unable to practice or compete at gymnastics almost the entire season due to the pain, despite my desperate efforts. On the night before the state-qualifying gymnastics tournament, my father found me at the base of ourstairs, too weak to walk or even yell for help. That night, he and my doctor came up with a hopeful solution for the pain. What happened the following day is nothing short of crazy! But for the rest of the details you will have to read my memoir, slated to be published in Fall/Winter 2017! Ten years later, I still take a daily dose of oral chemotherapy and likely will for the rest of my life (or until my cancer becomes resistant to the drug). Despite dealing with the effects of cancer and the treatment for the past ten years, I managed to graduate high school early and move to Florida to pursue my dream of becoming a professional wakeboarder, received a finance degree from theUniversity of Central Florida, appear on TV for the likes of Travel Channel, MTV, and ESPN, appear in commercials, print, and video ads for brands such as Hard Rock Cafe, LifeProof, Liquid Force, and others, and have also spent countless hours raising money and awareness for charities such as the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society and BeTheMatch.org. I’m happy and healthy and don’t plan on slowing down anytime soon!
Even before being diagnosed with leukemia I had a deep appreciation for life, and my journey has only reinforced that. I find great importance in taking care of my body and appreciate my health more and more each day I live with cancer. I stay very active, whether that’s working out in the gym, doing yoga, surfing, playing tennis, golfing, hiking, biking, etc. I love playing! Not to mention I find it equally as beneficial for the mind as the body. Having cancer is not ideal, but it has been a rewarding and enriching experience. I am so grateful for the advanced treatments available for my disease, the support of loved ones, and the opportunities it has presented over the past ten years!
Per the usual, I forgot to post on 9/22, National CMLAwareness Day, but I guess it's okay because for me, everyday is CML Day...Chronic Myeloid Leukemia is a little different than other cancers, as there is no way of early detection nor are there any clear ways to prevent the disease from forming. So instead of making your "aware" of CML, I want totake this day to remind you all the importance of taking care of your bodies and minds. Though CML may not be preventable, MANY forms of cancer and other deadly diseases are. We not only have the opportunity to treat our bodies withrespect, but I feel it is also our responsibility to do so. MOVE your bod, EAT REAL food, heck maybe even feel your boobs today (to check for lumps, of course). Take advantage of the opportunity to look and feel good from the insideout while giving your body the best chance at a long, healthy, and happy life.You won't regret it. Happy Fri/CML-Day.
The Tattooed Hijabi
"Be unapologetically YOU, because you've fought, struggled, and strived to become the woman you are today!""Encourage your sisters, our sisterhood is what makes us unbreakable."
I stumbled on a handwritten note my doctor had included in my medical records that read: “ED/Anorexia.” And I cried my heart out. I wanted nothing more than to eat, to nourish the body that had once taken me around the world. The body that danced for ten years and hiked the Adirondack High Peaks. The body that now weighed 90 pounds and felt nauseous at the smell of food.When I saw that note, I lost hope that doctors could help. I wrote a will. I sent a Word document entitled “The Plans” to my best friend. I only had one last wish: to see Hawaii.My grandmother found THE doctor. He asked me what my favorite food was when I could eat. Chicken. He said I would be eating chicken the next time I saw him. I rolled my eyes.I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease. I had lost four years, doctors had given up on me and dismissed my case as an eating disorder, but I could finally eat again.I was able to return to college this year to finish my degree in Journalism and Documentary Film Production. I work as a model and YouTuber. And I’m a Muslim convert who advocates for inclusivity within my Muslim community and tolerance for all faith communities.I know chronic illness will always be a part of my life. But I will continue to thrive by becoming more conscious of my physical and spiritual well-being.
Dear Donald Trump,I am a Muslim American woman born into an army family. My grandfather served our country for 21 years, deploying multiple times to both the War in Korea and in Vietnam. He had 6 sons, who grew up with his wife on countless army bases. My father was born on a base in Lisbon Portugal, had his genetic heart condition assessed in Morocco, spent many years of his childhood on a base in Germany, and then bounced around bases here in the states, finally settling near Fort Drum, NY upon his fathers retirement. My father went on to become an ER nurse for the VA Hospital, where he's worked for over 23 years now, to give back to the men and women who sacrifice to preserve our freedom, like his father. Outside of your Albany, NY rally a few month ago, a belligerent man approached me and ridiculed me for being a Muslim woman. I stayed silent, because I knew he was too intoxicated not just with alcohol, but with the poisonous ideals you had just instilled in him within your rally. The next day he made the news for his inappropriate actions outside of your rally, and that was when I found out that he is an janitor at my fathers VA hospital. Despite my silence, he will never again look my father in the eye. He will hear me forever.
I began watching a show called Lost about a plane called Oceanic 815 that crashes on a mysterious island. The series transported me out of my bed and into their world, onto The Island. In the very first episode we meet Jack, a spinal surgeon, and Kate. Jack asks for Kate’s help sewing up a gash on his back. She agrees, but struggles with her anxiety since she’s not a doctor. Jack tells her about how he dealt with terrifying operations:“I'd let the fear in, let it take over, let it do its thing, but only for five seconds, that's all I was going to give it. So I started to count: One, two, three, four, five. Then it was gone. I went back to work, sewed her up and she was fine.”That idea of counting to five became my tactic for taking on my anxiety every time I had to face a procedure, test, blood draw, doctor’s appointment, or new medicine. I’d count… one, two, three, four, five, and I’d face it head on. So as silly as it may sound, Lost not only became an outlet for my mind to escape the sate my body was in, but it also helped to heal the anxiety plaguing my brain. The entirety of Lost was filmed in Oahu, Hawaii, and I had to see the beach that had become my escape, and my mother knew that. So when I came to her, begging for her to take me to Oahu she said no. She knew that if I went now, that was it, I would give up on the tests, medicine, and countless new doctors who never had any answers. She promised to take me when I was better, and in retrospect, I’m so glad she did.
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